thiss ishh hadd me rollinnnnn!

the kitchenn scene is comedyyy.
mann&&wife was thee best show..

goodbye my lovee ....

i been trying to get this off my chest for awhilee...
thiss blogg is too my first REAL && last lovee .
thiss is to himm . i know me && you don't talk anymore..
but i just decide to blog about.. so i could get it off my chest..
these are my final wordss .
i don't even know where to start .
i've been thinking for hourss && hourss .
about what im gonna say , && how im gonna say it .
so manyy thoughtss && soo manyy memoriess .
i just dont understandd you . . .

it took 3 monthss for yuu to fall inn && out of lovee with me. .
all the thingss you told me .
all the thingss i believed .
all the thingss i did .
all the thingss you did .
so many memoriess .
&& now its just ,
over .

im not gonna tell yuu anything you already know .
you know how i feel about you so theress no need to repeat myself .
i just never thought we would end for this reasonn .
i never thought you would feel , how yuu feel .
im not gonna talk about her ,
bcuss i dont know her . && maybee she doess something i dont .
bt onee thinq i can promisee yuu tht she cant do ,
is lovee yuu likee i lovee you .
no onee cann .
myy lovee for yuu is likee ;
a mother && childd :
never endinq .
every word , sentencee , thinq i ever toldd yuu i was alwayss
170% reall withh you .
id always be there for you [even tho we dnt talk] .
&& i still wouldd ,
till the day i diee .

my problem was ,
or well ,
hardest thing for me to try and understand is whyy you lied to me soo
muchh durinq that time you kneww you didnt wanna be with me anymoree .
we hadd tht conversationn , where i toldd you
i jus wanted to be with yuu forever .
&& yuu listened ,
&& your response was , "i wanna be wit you forever too."
knowing that you didnt .
whyy do me like that ?
im listening to breathe [natalie mejia] .
&& oh i remember thinking of you in that song .
i believedd everythingg you ever told mee .
was i beinq stupidd to trust the only person i love ?
how do yuu lovee someonee "moree thann anythinq" ,
bt walk away ?

you knew you were the most important thing inn my lifee .
&& your selfishh wayss jus said , fuck me && how i felt .
or maybee you just dont really care=/
i wishh i kneww what i did wrong .
i wishh you wouldve told mee when thinqss started chanqinq so
i couldve trydd to make thing alittle better.
bt maybee it was over.. for good.

&& as biqq as a crybaby as i am
lol .
i havent really cryedd til i started typinq this .
i havee so muchh to try to express && i wishh you would understand .
bt no sonq could explain it .
no person .
not evenn the wordss im typing can explainn or express how i feel .
i just wishh i could show youu .

all i ever wanted to do was lovee you .
&& i do .
bt you dont want my lovee anymoree.
&& i thought you would never stop wantinq it .
&& i guess im just foolishh for believinq nothinq could ever go wrong .

im not qonna begg for you to comee back .
im not gonna wishh you lovedd me moree .
cus what yuu dont want someonee elsee will right ?

i went out last nitee ,
&& i met this really nicee guy .
he madee me smilee && everything .
bt in every silencee of our conversationn .
i couldnt help bt think of yuu =/
&& thts how i knew it wasnt time for me to movee onn just yet .

im not gonna up && find a new niqquh ,
cus to be honest im still in lovee withh yuu .
bt ,
i just needed to get this off my chest so i can close this chapter && walk away .
knowing i gavee yuu all tht i couldd .
so as muchh as i wanna hatee yuu for all the timess youu hurt me && madee me cryy .
i dont .
youu qavee me a lifee lessonn .
you taught me how to lovee without limitss .
i dont think i could ever lovee anyone as much as i love you denzel .
bt when yuu lovee somethinq , sometimess yuu qotta let it qo .

&& i dont want ANYBODY to think yuu werent a qood personn .
cuss yuu were the most amazing person i ever met .
on so many levelss .
bt shit happenss i guess .
i wishh yuu the best .
alwayss && forever .
i lovee youu .

[p$]. havee a nicee lifee thoo :-*